February has been a weird blur for me. My weekends have been consumed with traveling, bridal showers, and 500+ participant retreats. When I look at the calendar in the beginning of each month, if I don't see foreseeable rest, I tend to put my head down and power through my days. (Please don't follow this pattern. It's not cool)
Over the past few weeks, I've had a lot of people ask me how I'm doing. My response is always the same: "I'm ok. I feel off, but I'm ok."
FINALLY. Today, I cleared my schedule, slept in, and when I surfaced from my 10+ hour night of sleep like a bear emerging from the longest winter hibernation, I drove to my spot. My beloved coffee shop just up the street.
Over the past few weeks of "powering through," I lost vision. I lost vision for my work, my marriage, my friendships, my relationship with Jesus. I started checking off tasks without checking my heart or really understanding WHY I do what I do. This pattern left me grumpy and exhausted.
Proverbs 29:18 says: "Where there is no vision, the people perish."
While I'm pretty sure this verse is speaking into prophetic vision, I think the significance remains the same. Without understanding our heart and motivation, we're going to crumble: physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually.
So today, I prayed through the different categories of my life and here's my vision for the next stretch of February before I refocus for March.
Relationship with Jesus: Prioritize above all else. Live, breathe, rest in the Gospel.
Marriage: Cherish Steve. Pray for him daily and remind him how loved he is.
Work: Invest in my girls. Listen to them, really listen. They are valuable and deserve all the love in the world.
Friendships: Invest in community. Prioritize going to City Life Group and being vulnerable with the handful of people in my life.
Physical health: I HAVE NOT BEEN TAKING CARE OF MYSELF. Get back on the exercise train and STOP THE BODY SHAMING.
My vision isn't super deep or complicated. Just investing where I am and remembering to be present and to love people well. That's it. Not frilly or fancy, just be.where.i'm.at.
How are you guys doing? It's almost March. Are your #goalz for 2017 still a thing?