Do you ever feel like a nobody?
Forgettable, unimportant, like everyone else is just slightly more “together.”
I do, and have a lot, recently.
This season of life has been a battle. I’m in the process of developing a ministry team of people who are excited to team up with me and share Jesus with Columbus. It’s been an adventure, a walking through the desert, terrifying, exhausting, adventure. Wilderness is probably more accurate.
This season feels lonely. Like I’m walking beneath Harry Potter’s Invisibility Cloak.
Like no one knows me or sees me.
Because of my crazy schedule, I’m not as involved in ministry as I have been over the past year. Most of my time consists of emails, phone calls, and driving. Searching for ANYONE who might be blessed to hear what God is doing through our ministry at Ohio State.
I also spend a lot of time talking to my cat. (judge me)
As I’ve wrestled with insecurity and mind-numbing lies, Jesus reminded me of this:
“I use Nobodies.”
I think in our culture, we’re all obsessed with being Somebodies. Especially, on college campuses. Everyone is desperately searching for their “niche.” Hoping to be a legend. Hoping to be remembered.
This isn’t always a bad thing; however, the Lord gently and patiently pointed out that I’ve surrendered my identity to the mission of being noticed. I idolize being wanted, needed, and valued by humans, specifically college students.
Over the past few days, I’ve slowly snacked on that piece of humble pie. I am a nobody by society’s standards. I’m not part of the 1% of the human population whose name will be taught in history books and featured on Oprah. Speaking of Oprah, I’ll never be known by just my first name.
And you know what? That’s okay.
It’s okay to be a Nobody because Jesus uses Nobodies. He uses people like me and like you who haven’t found our niche. Those of us who aren’t the best. Those of us who sometimes feel invisible.
I’m okay with that. It’s okay if people don’t understand my mission. It’s okay if I’m not needed or wanted. It’s okay. It’s okay because Jesus uses the humble, the meek, the ones who feel supremely average.
His power is made perfect in weakness. And I’m starting to accept that I’m weak, but that’s okay because I’d rather His name be made great. I’d rather people see Him, not me. I’m not the Savior of the world.
I’m just a nobody hoping to use my short time on this planet to make Somebody great.
If you feel like a nobody, you probably are, but THAT'S OKAY. I am too. Instead of wallowing beneath our Invisibility Cloak, let's secretly make Jesus great.
Peace n' blessins,