Friends, I am a self-proclaimed wedding addict.
In elementary school, instead of Arthur and Hey Arnold, I spent hours watching TLC’s “Wedding Story.” I loved dreaming of gowns and sparkles and just the right color combination.
In 6th grade, I was a junior bridesmaid in my aunt’s wedding. You would have thought it was my wedding day as I meticulously hairsprayed my “professionally done” (let’s be real, it was my mom’s hair dresser) updo.
In 7th grade, the title of my history fair presentation was: “the History of Weddings.” Yup. It’s true. (I got a SUPERIOR by the way)
In college, my roommates and I spent far too many Fridays watching TLC “Bride Day” while vegging out on embarrassing amounts of popcorn.
Needless to say, I have a bit of a “Wedding Problem.”
5 months ago, I “said yes.” And with my moderately concerning wedding obsession, you’d probably guess planning has been a dream come true.
Well friends, you’d be wrong.
Over the past five months, the Lord has given me, what I like to call, “eyes for eternity.”
A few weeks ago, I went dress shopping. I was overwhelmed by how underwhelmed I was.
Now don’t get me wrong, I am THRILLED beyond THRILLED to marry Steve. He’s an amazing man who loves Jesus more than anything and I am blessed beyond measure to team up with him for life. However, I’m learning that despite what the Hollywood says, I do not feel complete because I’m getting married.
In fact, I’m deeply aware that this beautiful gift of marriage and wedding celebration, are just shadows. They're shadows of the future that beholds those of us who said yes to Jesus.
Steve’s love for me is only a small glimpse of the way Jesus loves us. And the wedding celebration is just a picture of the celebration the Lord will throw His bride (the church) when we leave this side of Eternity and enter our Home. Oh what a beautiful day that will be!
As I tried on wedding gowns, the bridal boutique employees kept asking me if I was okay. Probably because I kept saying "fine" and "whatever." I wasn’t overly emotional by the whole process; in fact, all the gowns were pretty and I wasn’t obsessed with any of them, even the dress I chose. I think I was so underwhelmed because I knew that this dress; although beautiful, is just another shadow. It’s a shadow of the beautiful dress I’ll wear someday in the Place where every tear is wiped away and death is no more.
Now THAT will be a dress. THAT will be a celebration. THAT will be a love like no other.
In the meantime, each day, I get a little more excited and a little more terrified of that walk down the aisle. But I do feel honored to be a part of modeling Jesus' overwhelming sensational love through marriage and celebrating.
Thanks for sticking with me, friends. Y'all are champs.
P.S. || It's been awhile. I'm in the process of support-raising, which takes up most of my time. But stay tuned because this year, I hope to completely rebrand my blog ||