[I originally wrote this post for the Reliant blog, but as graduation approaches for many students, I've been having a lot of discussions about hearing from God/feeling called. I thought this was applicable]
I have an existential crisis at least once a week. I’ll be 26 next month and it is not a typical Tuesday if I’m not laying upside down on my couch asking God: “What is this place? Why am I here? Where do you want me? When are you coming to get us?”
When I reflect on the road that led me to my latest season of ministry, there is no Morgan Freeman voice or burning bush. I didn’t have a prophetic dream and I didn’t cross paths with a stranger who informed me that God wanted me to work at She Has A Name. It isn’t deep or flashy. I simply wanted to give my time to abolition work and God let me. He graciously let me learn and grow and experience new challenges.
I spent my first three years after graduating working with my campus church. I loved it. Spring break trips, Leadership Training, coffee shop discipling, and radical life change. It is still one of my greatest honors that I got to watch college students give their life to Jesus and in turn, watch Him change everything. I chose to go into ministry right after I graduated because again, I wanted to and God opened the door. I remember trying to process what it would look like for me to go to grad school or enter corporate America after graduation and it just didn’t make sense for me at the time. All I wanted to do was invest in college students and thankfully, God let me and Reliant hired me.
Over the past year, I transitioned almost entirely out of campus ministry. As much as I loved working with college students, my prone-to-wander heart was ready to experience God in a new facet. I was volunteering at She Has A Name for almost a year before I joined their staff team. And after nearly a year of serving as “Community Engagement Director,” I’m grateful.
I’ve planned community events, coordinated volunteers, learned how to build a website, learned about marketing and social media. I’ve led new teams and managed interns. I’ve built partnerships and invested in relationships. Along the way, I learned a whole lot about human trafficking and the devastating brokenness in Columbus. It’s hard to believe it’s been a year because I genuinely had no idea what I was doing until maybe 3 months ago. I was faking it every single day while I sat in my little cubical Googling “How to imbed a newsletter on Squarespace.”
God’s been generous to me. I have no idea where He’s leading or how long I’ll be in the nonprofit world, but I am grateful for his kindness towards me as He’s allowed me to experience Him in different spaces in ministry. Who knows, maybe on one of my Existential-Crisis-Tuesdays, He’ll let me know where I’m wandering next.